Thursday, June 23, 2011
PARTY OF ONE
All the emotions flow through me like a faucet. The only problem is that i don't have an on/off button. I know moments where i shouldn't feel a certain way or i should feel something and i don't. today isn't the first day this has happened. I am angry, sad, disappointed, and on the other side i feel very clear about things. Maybe i shouldn't be angry but i am. I've been let down. Wanna know what it feels like to hope for something and then when you get so close and so happy and so excited then its like..sorry Tonya..just kidding ...you don't get any of those feelings and experiences. I will be ok with it all. I always am.And here's my pity party...it happens to me alot so i get used to it. So now that my pity was a party of one i will get over it and though it. I always do. So tomorrow its time to think of the present and my future and let go of the past. I'm ready to be happy and look forward to something that's concrete. Just living day by day and being happy about the small things. I'm ready to wake up tomorrow.